dont know wad to write actualli..
nothin to write.nothing happened this few days.still normal lahs.
ha~always meeting the same ppl...go cs saw same people.
blaah~
hmmm..fri metup with shan darlinkk.go town...den shop shop shop~ bought a green shirtt.haha.kinda nice lahs.at least nv regret buying it.x)
shan bought a lot of STUFF.envious.=\ her mother actualli gave her $200.woah rich.
and den i only bought one thingy.sian.i need moneyyy~i wanna earn my own money x((
saturday.went out with amburn,,fahliq carmen and me..
just reli boringg.nobody to go out with..
we went orchard..fahliq need to gif dont nou wad thingy at there for her mother.haaa~
after that we went buggis..my ex-kampong.lol.
usedd to go there LAST LAST time everyday lahs.after tt stupid para machine being moved away dont nou go whr alr.den nv chiong bugis alr.haa.kinda missed frens there lahh~
oh yaa.heard that xiao zhu go in girls home alr=\ 3 weeks. dont nou wad cases baa.n dont care-.-
zhuzhu work at the billiard counter.shes sad i supposed.cuz xiao zhu and her are sisters.dont nou real one or what?dont nou.dont care.~not close to them ba.but zhuzhu lend my purple pokie spot wallet.havent return..uhh.forget it..a gift for her ba LOL.
we bought bagg.hahaha...was damn small -.- mine is purple one..and carmen one is..erm brown?reli very small lah..only can put a planner inside..uh~dont care.i will bring it to sch everyday.but will HOLD books in my hands ba.need to study~sian.
about 5 liddat we ge zhou ge lu.deng chu liao~
sundayyy.meet shandy.supposed to go out with carmen but den at the last min she say dont wanna go out alr.sian.buei steadyy.hurhr..nvmm.(=
we dance dance dance like craziie chabors.den watch movie.pacifier~hahaha..a funny plus nice plus touching plus interstin movie can.wanna watch it again..haaa.got a few part make me wanna cry.lalala~sobs.
haiyaa.not gonna think about anything anymore.not gonna be sad wen go sch.and gonna force my self to go sch every morninig altho i nou i always pretend to be sick or wad.but i reli gonna study alr.nv smoke alr.nv drink nv wadever lahhs.
good girl good girl.
wahas.
x)
-ThE EnD-
havent blog for a longg long time alr.
hais.empty mindd.really cant rmb happen for the pass few weeks.
i only know.
i have been crying and cryingg.again and again.
heartaches.its killing me.i wanna die.i wanna kill my self.i dont care alr.
haiss.
why do we always haveta quarrel over and over again.i dont nou.really dont nou.
laogong changed.he treat me in a diff way alr.hes not the one i used to love anymore.he changed.changed to another person.he dont teng me.he dont care bout me.like how he used to do like b4.
i dont like it.i hate it.
haiss.
i wan my happiness.
where is my happiness..
i wanna see my boy eveeryday.i need him.really.
lonely~i am so lonely~
actualli,i kinda mind about his probation thingy alr.=\
hais.he got tuition he got to study.he got O level this year ,he got probation and all.we can hardly meet each other.
wad we can do is only talk on phonee.sms..nth else..
haissssss~
i need a miracle,i wannabe your girl give me a chance to see that u wre made ffor me.
haiss.
i wan u and me to work it outt.
i dont wanna quarrel with you...
sian..
sadd dayss.
lonely lonely days x(
-ThE EnD-
wasnt at home for the past few days.i dont feel like touchin my comp this few days also.dont know why.
hmmm.thursday went to lingg chalet baa.supposed to ton with them,but then dearie is badly missed by me.i cant wait to see him.i need him at that very moment.so i take cab.and then went to find him .stay overnight at his house.tt very thursday night.got dear sleeping besides me.huggin him to sleep.
e nxt morning,i took cab home.then go out again at about 1+.go to cs.damn fuckin lots of ppl-.-''my friends all not there.not even one.only saw 2 chabor ba.one is audrey gan ma.dont know.they keep diao-ing me?i supposed to diao back ba.but didnt.dont wanna got taiji here n there.dont wanna live in pai kia life.cuz i think its simply childish and wasting time ba.I think thru alr.I will not go cs anymore.not gonna dance there from afternoon till night anymore.not gonna find ppl from there for ciggie.not gonna find taiji thr alr.not gonna contact anybody there alr.maybe oni weiping ba.dont know.she havenot contact me for quite a long time alr.that place is boring,got all kind of stupid ppl there ba.pai kiaa.non of my business lah.I wanna be a good girl.be ben good girl.waha.
then metup with dear in the evening.he came tampi to find me.actualli goin bugie to find xiao d.that ass hole ann return me money.then he gif me all kind of fcukin excuses.heyy.fcuk you understand.lanjiaoo lang.
actualli watchin movie with dearie.but realli damn lots of people lahs.kaos.i wanted to watch the eye10.fcuk the ppl lah.-.-''
then we go walkwalk,after tt find his frens.ah..supposed to ton tonight.told my mom not going home.but dearie ask me to ,so just listened.
saturdayy.was stayin at home from morning till evening.cuz gg find dearie latr again.went his house ,for awhile den go out alr.meet up with his frens again too.blaaa.i want to watch my the eye 10 =[
dearie send me home at about 9+ ba.haiis.dont know .this few days feel so sad.besides about that shandy thingy.its between me and laogong baa.
dont knoww.x(
-ThE EnD-
pon school today.did not want to go to sch and had no mood to go to sch.
meet carmen in the morning.go ard 2o1 slack slack awhile.then at 8+ went her house to sleeep.zzz
I went home at 2pm+ lahs.to lazy to take bus.take cab go altho my house is quiet near actualli =then carmen follow me home also.i go prepare while she using the comp..
after that meet alyssa at cs.missed para.missed dancing with shan..
after den , take cab go chalet.nth to do lahs.was kinda boringg.
cuz its still pretty early and theres only a few of us.
stupid jian wei break up with carmen.she criedd.haii.
that fucker.. i also not in erli good mood.I smoke again.i tot i said I wanna quit alr?wad the hell.3.just 3 ciggie.
we drank beer too.I got high.walk ard.dance ard.sing ard.
not drunk,just feeling fuckin hot and high.cool~love the feelingg.
at night..I take cab went sengkang find laogong.damn tiredd.actualli will go find shann but then hp no batt alr.den i dont rmb her num.haii.howw.so sorri darlinkk =go his house..saw his parents.his dad.i tot he would be fierce to me.but den , ,
okay lahs.i go read his sent items lahs.got a girl call wad celetine .whoever she is lahs.i hate herr.she is another girl who BEN is missingg.dont know lah.Dont wanna share his heart with anybodyy.haiya..hecked.
i fell a sleep .blaaa.anywayys.
da yi maa.damn ma fan lahs.
sian.
-ThE EnD-
did go sch today.still okay lahs actualli.cuz quite a num of teachers never come.can talk crap and walk around.kinda missed my lovable classmates,anyways=\
ha.missed carmen laopo most actualli lahs.wahas.muacks.love her.=)
she stead with jian wei .tt sec5 shuai ge.bahh.i dont care.i fuckin hate him lah.cuz he pointed middle finger at me last time.boo.u better treat my sister good.dont play her i warn u.or else.I chop u into pieces.
.still in playing mood.keep singing song and day dream in class.crap with danial.blablablaahh.no mood to study.its boringg.
the bell rangg.then take my EMPTY bag home baa.its like Im carryin nothing.lol.damn lightt.wahas.
go home.bath.then go downstairs eat with frenn.then go home again..blablablaa.borinngg.imiss laogong.sighh.
thursday gonna ton.or maybe fri too.excited x)
but dear seems not happi with it.
fcukked.
sigh
-ThE EnD-
Went laogong place again.lol
his house becum my kampong liao lahs.wahas.
took cab there again.the taxi driver is cute lahs.so round.then keep smiling at me de.forgot to take num x=
today good lahs.spend kinda long time only me and laogong in his house.
his parents and didi at ah mah house.lalala~
watch son of the mask lorhs.the baby is cute~like me..xP
Do it all night..do it with me..ill take u to heaven if you make me feel free.
lol.I cant twist anymore.laogong shud nou wad i mean.horr?DEAR.
wahahs x))
dearr.
you cant leave me.
I wont leave u.
I promise.
to love you.
forever.
-ThE EnD-
was waiting for laogong`s call.using comp.not chatting or wad.just staring at the screen.blastin techno.damnn boredd.
about 1+ i think.hubbie called.then say about 5 can reach his house there lor.wha so long.
then wanted to go down cs.but then..what can i do there.?=\
Erwin called me.say they at cs.asked me for ciggie.but then i dont have any with me.so i go cs find them lahs as I really gonna bored to death already.went cs.saw kinda lots of people there lah.but then just dunno why..just feel that today arcade kinda quiet??ahh..shannon wasnt there.thats why bah.
asked ard for ciggie.got this guy call CHILLI.said wanna give me free packet.whaa.so good.he santa claus lahs.his bag got 5 PACKET of ciggie lehs.but then I thought i wanted to quit smokin alr?so just took one.kept in my baggie.
then take cab go find laogong.when was abt to reach his blk lift.he called .he was at the voideck nearby lah.his mother at home.cannot go.then spend hours walking around his house there with him.no matter where..i got my laogong by my side can le.about 9+ .we take cab ho my house there.hubbie pei me sit sit awhile.after that.. something bad happened lahs.hai.
laogong eyes actualli went red.i asked why.he say he tired.den after awhile more.tears came out from his eyes when we were talking how when we dont see each other those kind of stuff.I actualli cried ,too.sighh.my heart painn.
then laogong say want walk walk.then saw couple dont know sitting down there doing wad.charbor help the guy kum lan jiao?tarbor ji neh neh?=\wtf.dont know lahs.dont care.
deaar.I dont want to see you like that.I promise u .I will never ever leave u again .I only got u inside my heart.you are the only guy Im thinking of always.you are the only one i love.I wont leave u.I miss you.I dont know wad to do when I dont get to see u so often.how when I miss u till i cryy?how when I need ur hugs when Im feeling cold?i dont know.I only know..I always needed u by my side..dont talk about the past anymore okays?i beg you..
laogong..I love you always and forever.<3
trust me can??
-ThE EnD-
fourteen . 1st july ; ; attached , slacker ,dreamer , Ben`s Laopo
wish.upon.a.shooting.star :: MONEY ` more clothes ` marry Ben ` mummy wanna-be ` drop out of sch ` pei hubbie evryday `
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I need . laogong , shanDy , all my friends . family. hp ,money ,comb-
i hate Paikia`s Life , backstabbers , bombster ,
I love :Laogong , jiemeis , Jay chou , singing ,dancing ,getting hot,gettin high , smoking , drinking ,slacking ,eating , sleeping ,dreaming -
my charcterr: stupid , noisy , crappy , crazie ,
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